I want to do this writing thing, but I don’t know where to start. Do I start writing short stories? Do I keep blogging about the quips of daily life? Do I make an outline? Do I show you, the readers, everything? Sincerely, I have no idea.
Honestly, I’ve never really been good at anything. I’m not particularly athletic, I was an embarrassing cheerleader once upon a time, my attitude and general disposition are not increasingly enthusiastic, and I’m not creative in a hands on sense. I am literally never going to make a wreath for my front door or use a hot glue gun without burning myself up in some tragic, over the top accident. I don’t really have an ‘eye’ for anything other than brownies and how to break down a 2-3 zone. If you’re looking for someone to fold your t-shirts perfectly, organize your linen closet, make a good pot of chili and a loaf of banana bread, I guess I would do in a pinch, but I’m not talented at anything really.
But, I can write. I have voice. I know it and I am pretty confident in it, but I am not that great. For example, I don’t ever really think I could write a book because I have exactly zero work ethic. So many ventures seem like such an awesome idea to me and then they get a little difficult or I get bored and I’m checking out immediately. I can’t imagine this will be any different, and I know if I tried to write a book it wouldn’t be any different, but here we are, same old blog again. I want to do this, and I want to do that, but really I only want to write it if it’s perfect on the first run and I don’t have to proof it and make it better, well, pretty much ever.
Unfortunately, that’s not how any of this works. That’s not how writing works. Nothing is perfect the first time, the second time, or the third. Another thing is, it’s really scary. The other night, I wrote something and shared it that actually had something to do with current events, something that I knew would be at odds with a lot of people. When you write something in a public forum, you put yourself out there and you have to be ready for that. But, honestly, a lot of things I write privately push me into looking myself in the mirror. Sometimes I’m not really sure how or what I feel about a situation until I write about it. Writing is powerful like that.
I’m not foolish and I don’t think I can change the world with my writing. I don’t know that anything I ever write will be published outside of this blog. I have to stop being scared if something is ‘good enough’ to post and just bore you all with everything. You know, all 10 of you that read this (and that’s aiming incredibly high!). But, if I get even single chuckle, provoke some thought, heck, make anyone feel anything, then I guess that’s the point.
So, again, where in the world do I even start?